Changes that occurred in my life in 2014

Just some random things I thought I should conclude for this year. This also serves as a checkpoint for me to look back a few years from now to see how much I would have grown.

1. I used to think that people didn’t want to listen to me talk and I was really bad at speaking. I realised it was because most of the time, I didn’t give them a chance to listen by expressing my thoughts and resulting in a lack of practice in voicing for myself.
2. I used to lead my life like a robot. I just did what I was told to do and did everything logically. Now I try to follow my heart and of course not go overboard about doing it. (Life is about balance yo)
3. Because of point 2, I realised that I didn’t really have something in my heart that I really liked, especially when it comes to long terms goals and what kind of things I enjoy and like. Regarding this issue, I am still searching for what I want to be and do in life. 
4. I used to think that Christians are really screwed up people. Like how the religion is all about asking non-christians to go to hell and how christians have certain rules to follow eg. no premarital sex, divorce. And how they ‘pretend’ all so serious about helping and caring about other people when they have so many superficial and uncaring rules. But I realised firstly that the religion itself is much more than going to church, reading the bible, singing weird songs and telling people that they will go to hell. I learnt that it was about love, forgiving, and gratitude. Secondly that I shouldn’t judge people just because they are christians. (Yes, I used to do that a lot. I am sorry. >< ) Not everyone is pretentious about helping and caring; a lot of people are sincerely doing so. And lastly, I know that I haven’t completely understood the religion (more of understanding why so many people believe in christianity) so I am trying to learn more about it. 
5. I learn to actively step out of my comfort zone. Well sometimes I do it unconsciously. But I guess it’s more about dealing with the situation that I am not comfortable in. And I think I am getting more conscious about situation when I don’t feel in place. In the past, I wasn’t sensitive about my feelings, which brings me to point 6.
6. I realised that a lot of times, when things happen, I don’t really know how to react, which actually explains my laugh at almost everything. When I feel awkward, I laugh. When the joke is funny, I laugh. When the joke is really bad, I laugh too. Laughter is almost like my immediate response to everything. I don’t know if it is because I don’t know what my feeling is or it is because I don’t have any feeling. The latter seems much worse but I haven’t concluded anything.

(This is not the end of the list yet. I will finish this by the end of this year. :D )
Blogger's post editing thing improved (Y) but the templates still suck. I want to consolidate everything I have on wordpress and blogger but I have yet to decide how I want to do it. >:(

how did I manage to write so much?

Google chrome failed to help me post on my blog using my phone. Now I forgot what i wanted to write about. Let me think...

Oh. I wanted say I think I lost some of my ability to communicate, particularly in English, due to lack of communication with people when mugging for non GP subjects and watching too much Korean shows and dramas. Nowadays, I look at Chinese/English subtitles and the Korean phrases just pops up in my brain. This is bad. I think it is spoiling my grammar that's why I wanted to post something to help myself gain back some skills.

Even twitter is not helping because I just backspace everything when I feel that something is wrong about my grammar. :( And, I cannot consolidate my thought. Everything is in chunks.

I have been thinking a lot these days even though it is not really the right time (I should be studying). I realise I don't like to reflect about my life. When there is those kind of situation where the teacher asks us to reflect and say all those touching stuff, I always end up saying all the lame stuff. This is bad(?). I think it is some kind of problem with me. I don't like to think about my life and all those touching stuff. Maybe it is not wrong but it is something I hope I can change? I should be more open about my thoughts because no one is going to judge right? I think I am always afraid of saying the wrong things but there isn't a right or wrong way to think, is there? (here comes my weird sentence structure) so I shouldn't be bothered about what I say too much?

Maybe it is just being me. It will be weird if I just start saying those kind of mushy(?) stuff. Yes it is weird, I just imagined it in my head and I had goosebumps. But if I keep all those thoughts in my head, it is not doing anyone good. Isn't it better if I let people know that I appreciate them, I feel apologetic and bad, etc? But it still difficult for me to say those stuff. Maybe it is the problem of getting used to it. :/

Awkward place to end but I can continue this self debate forever because I haven't come to a conclusion yet. Hope I can come to a conclusion soon so I won't have to be so bothered by this. :D

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Have been busy with work and my research. Today is like my free-est day ever since I started work. Work has been a little too much for me. All my own fault actually. I've been work for about 10 hours everyday. I am crazy.  I am going for 9-10 hours on the next two days as well. I also don't know what I am thinking. LOL. I just want to like max out my body. or maybe lose some weight. haha. I actually lost some. :D

waiting for my mcdonalds' to come now. my sis say it will come at 8pm and she say she is going to die. Yay.

I got a job.

I got a job. haha. went for the trial yesterday. it was quite fun. the people there are just fun. :D just that there were something wrong with my eyes/contact lenses. which made me feel a little bit uncomfortable and awkward. and perhaps look awkward too. But i am not going back there to work again. I just hope that the ppl at nex are fun as well.

and there is this shop at PoMo with like a lot of doraemon stuff. not very ex too..... i bought a earpiece for 8 bucks :D:D:D my mum asked me not to go there ever again. :(

It's been long since I last posted.

Went to and came back from Macau/China. Dyed my hair. Hey. I bought a new bag (finally). And gained weight I guess. That's the 3 most important things about that trip. haha. Everything else is boring actually. >.<

I don't want to say anything. I am bored but I don't want to do anything. I just want to lie on my bed the whole day. And eat chicken. argh.

Sometimes I feel that even if I disappear from the world, nobody will notice. Will you notice?

Hehe

I am happy. I probably shouldn't be happy cause o level higher mother tongue is tomorrow and I haven't read like half of the notes yet. I seriously don't know what to do about that?! omg. what if I get a B?! it's sad. argh. whatever. I am still going to play maple like now. (alright it's later)

I want to dye my hair purple. yes it's purple. I wanted red at first. But I think like most aunties dye their hair red? And most red dyes are not like the super bright red kind. Purple is cooler? yea cause red (hot) + blue (cool) = purple (neutral). Yay. I am so awesome.

I am kind of looking forward to grad night? But I don't know what to do with my hair/makeup/transport there. bleh. whatever.

Hehe

Secrets

I guess I have a lot of secrets in my life. And I think I won't tell anybody even after I die. (Technically I won't be able to tell anybody after I die... O.o). Hehe

I am crazy. I realised I seldom listen to songs. Let along using my laptop. I look at my iTunes then I headache. Dx. whatever. higher chinese o levels are coming. I keep on telling myself that I have to study but I am obviously not. I cannot concentrate. I think I will start studying when school ends? idk. argh

eoy break

Have been playing sims 2 for the past few days. For the whole day. I think I am getting a bit bored of it, which is good for now. If not my mum will start scolding me again. I am finally installing maple. (It's loading now :P)

I want to go watch a movie although it means that I will have to spend some money. But it has been very long since I last watched a movie so I want to watch. Plus, EOYs are over (although there's still HCL O levels. omg.). I am going to ECP again tmr. This time I guess I know how to go already. haha. And I don't think I am going to walk across half of ECP again and sweat like hell. I got tanned on my forehead from that day off kite-flying at ECP.

oh no something happened to the maplestory thingy cannot open. omg. I took so long to move my files to the other hard disk and finally install maple and now cannot open. wts. I am going to faint like how the woman in korean dramas does it.

the new windows live messenger is weird. I cannot change my name. argh.

exams are over

eoys are over but I don't really feel like super happy. Maybe perhaps I wasn't mugging like super crazily or maybe there's still o levels omg. die manz. I shall not think about it now. argh.

so many things past but i don't feel like posting about them. i don't know why. maybe i am still excited to do other stuff. hehe. Shall post about them soon. before I forget. wait for them. haha

kaka

was watching wo cai yesterday then got detective conan. omg. they even used the same music like the starting and when xiaoxiaobing was saying who the 'murderer' was. argh. made me miss watching conan. hehe. I am going to watch conan now!! XD

I realised that nowadays like nothing to do when I come online. i seriously don't know what to do lah. sian. :( just hope for eoys to end soon then I can play sims 2 like crazy.

BUSY

I guess maybe I have lost my habit to blog. I don't even know what to blog about. Life's been busy. Even during trips to school/home I don't have time to stare and people or observe them. It's either I am too tired so I sleep or I will just keep on thinking about the stuff I need to do.

Recently I keep getting headaches. Today is the same. Since yesterday I should say. I don't feel like doing anything. This is sucky. :(

Life is unfair.

Is believing in people wrong? Why do people have to cheat me? It's not like they get things from cheating my feelings. What's wrong with them? Or is it something wrong with me? Trusting people too easily. I don't get it. Is everyone in this world doing things that are like fake? So I cannot trust everyone? What is wrong with trusting people? Trust is hard. Some people take very long to trust. But me? Trust people and get cheated. I think it's unfair. Life is unfair. Yes, we all know it.

YOG

The closing ceremony of the Youth Olympic Games is going on now.

The YOG has brought people playing a sport together. It has brought a country together. It has brought the whole world together. I saw people from different countries making friends together. The feeling was like so great.

Even though I have so much work to catch up, I don't regret volunteering at the YOG. Looking at teenagers like me coming together from all over the world to Singapore, the feeling is like totally indescribable.

I <3 YOG :D

finally

I finally fixed my blogskin/changed my blogskin.

yog judo was fun. but i don't feel like going to icc again. it makes me sick. after one whole day, saturday, being there, I felt very uncomfortable. and yesterday i had fever. luckily the doctor gave me 2 days of mc. then i can do my homework today and not go to school. i feel damn sian. lost. irritated. missing school for so many days makes me feel sick. it sucks. i am sure going to be lost when i go back. i don't want to go to school.

有些事情是命中注定，而有些只是巧合。

有些巧合是命中注定。

但命中注定的事，绝对不是巧合。

I know my blog layout is screwed. I also don't know why. I didn't even change anything. At first i thought it was only like that on Google Chrome. In the end it turned out that Adelle had that too. and I went to Firefox and it was still like that. I don't know what to do. :|

This lamb is so cute... once again. it's stupid and retarded. hahaha (laughs like the annoying orange!)

Have not posted for super long i guess.... actually not about one week. I think cause i feel that time has been pasting super slowly. like freaking slowly. i am like slowly spending every second and minute.

don't feel like posting about my operation. basically my leg was like numb at first then it started to be like pain. LOL. but now i feel okay... but my scar is like freaking freaking disgusting lahh. i don't want to see it manz. but it's like now exposed cause it's nicer when it is like being aired. i have like mc until the 31st manz. but i think i am still going to school. idk if i can walk already. i don't dare to like try. i feel like my left leg got like totally no strength lah. :( i dreamt that i could walk one day okay. so happy. i feel like a baby lor... like everyday improving... haha. but it's like so tired walking with crutches. when i stand i feel like all the blood rush to my leg. then it will become like brown colour. o.o

everyday i just slack. bla bla. i need to do my work manz. :/

going for operation tmr. i don't feel like as excited/nervous as last time. maybe tmr i will start feeling it. >.<>

Fallin' For You - Colbie caillat

The song is nice and the mv is so cute. haha. got the fat guy. Enjoy. :)

haixx today's training damn what lah

dunnoe what i make until like my shoulder/collar bone. then now my neck and my right back also pain.

i think i slack to much that's why. then people play with me then i can get injured easily.it's like when people play with me i just lose my balance very easily cause most of the times i put my weight on my right leg. so ppl kick my right leg = i will fall already. and now i don't even try to defend a throw lah. sians. i also don't know what i am trying to do now. FAIL ME. >.<

argh i don't feel like doing anything now. i need to do la srq and physics sia but i just don't feel like doing anything now seriously. >.<

just went to the doctor for check up today. and i had to do to blood test. when the doctor told me i freaked out can?! that time i do op also never do blood test. but after i did the blood test it was like no kick! had been poked with much thicker needles. haha. just when the taking out part quite painful... and i was amused by my own blood. XD it's like so red. i feel like some vampire. o.O

damn sian lah. i wanna slack. :( this week is like crap. need to hand in so many things. next week is like week 9 already. siao. like the last week of school already. (if the sabbaticals/lifeskills camp/week 10 is like not counted). then it's my operation. i realised that i am going to miss grading also. which means i have to stay at green belt for until dunnoe when. >.<

firefox is like so slow recently. idk why. so i keep on using google chrome now a days. which means i cannot auto horn on my mousehunt. but people will just keep horning for me actually. no diff lah... but i still like firefox. i hope my firefox can become normal again....

after blogging about so many things, i still don't feel like doing any work. GREAT

haha i last posted like almost 2 weeks ago...>.<

basically i went out with om team on last friday? yea. we went to the cathay at dhoby ghaut to have lunch and watch movie. we watched percy jackson! haha. the movie was lame but quite exciting. XD then we went to far east to shop. haha. i rmb when we were like walking to the mrt then i said go shopping to myself and smiled like very happily, according to wangjia. i also dunnoe why. just thought that we nv go shopping before. haha. wangjia was like looking for cheapo clothings! XD i bought a hat. amazing. i actually bought something from shopping. but nobody bought anything for graces actually. haha

then cny. okay cny went so fast okay... super duper fast. it's like i thought got like so many days to slack and whatever, then in the end also nv enjoy until shuang! omg lah. still must go to school and face all the hw. xiang dao jiu bu gan xin. DX

anyways i am glad that it's friday. :)

next week is like week 8?! wth.

Went to help the judo coms today... lol. shouldn't have decided to help out. cause have to go little india mrt station on a sunday. (which means.... you know lah) but nvm it was quite fun... lol at jinru's weird dream about wild wild wet. haha

i am freaking bored these days. i need ppl to sms me please. please sms me!!! :D

still have the chinese bao zhang thing to do... sian. i am surprised i manage to finish the introduction thingy for math portfolio. haha

next week is chinese new year already. yay!

who is jiwei?

I've been posting a lot recently. I think it's good. :D

I think i will be missing graces camp! seriously. I am having my knee op on the thursday on the last week of the term. so most probably i am going to miss graces camp. Unless the camp is like the the first 3 days of the week. Until wed. Then i won't miss it! But i think i still can go for the camp for the first 3 days? idk. I didn't thought about that lah. Now I thought abt it it's like so disappointing. argh. >:{

I feeling like re-watching Hai Pai again! It was like super gan dong/funny lah. even though the ending was quite lame. >.<>.<>.<

stayed back in school today for ih consultation+do NE stuff. it's been so long since i last stay back lah... i missed the om stays. I miss staying back in school until 4+/5 to do stuff! argh...!

i realised i ended every paragraph with ARGH... o.o

For some reasons my facebook HomePage keep on cannot load. I am sad/bored.

I watched haipai (last ep already. :() and the new jiuxianglaizheni just now. it's like super funny lah. haha i hope it will continue to be so funny. XD

oh. it's like Feb already lah. sian. 1/12 of the year 2010 is gone already. great. time flies. this is sad. :(

hmm... i don't know what is going on with me actually. I think I am a little bit crazy. Yesterday night i totally couldn't sleep at all. lie on the bed for like 1+h almost 2h i think. zzz. got block nose then keep tearing. then in the morning got super dark eye rings and big eye bags (even though i already have...) it's like for the whole of the morning i was like in the daze mode lor... cannot even open my eyes. esp during IH, in the aircon room some more, totally going to sleep already lor... >.<

haixx, i don't want to think about school work manx. sian. 3 days of non school days makes me like in a holiday mood already. haha.

hahahahahaha. i am crazy. it's either i am emo or that i am in an uncontrollable mood. >.<

being NE rep sucks. rawr. :@

For some reasons i just read my old posts. And i am amused by myself. haha.

I must not be so emo when i blog seriously.

I must blog about lame stuff! HAH!

120th post

went to the doctor today.

[for some reason i think i blog most about my injured knee] XD

i am going for the op during march which is like about 2 months (less than 2 months actually) the surgery is like damn scary i realise after i go google it. the doctor didn't make it so scary. IDC lah. sian. still got so long. during march then i shall start to worry. haha. yay.

sheryin says i am emo when i blog. hahah. i just blog about emo stuff. lol

i shall be happy byebye.

119th

yesterday was crazy. i slept at 1am on thurday night/friday morning to chiong R&R. even though the last one was like totally screwed. IDC. woke up at 5am in the morning. sleeping for 4 hours is equivalent to not sleeping at all. I had weird dreams. >.< shall not try to explain cause i am lazy to try to rmb what they were.

I was kinda satisfied since I managed to finish my 6 R&Rs one time. So i thought that i could just survive training and go home and sleep. training was horrible. everyone was like sian okay. haixx. and i got my knee injured again. like sprain. painful sia. i almost cried. like seriously. argh. i think maybe it's my shoes. i was so stupid that i went to change my shoes when i went back to the dojo to take some medic stuff. then because i was holding onto too many stuff i stupidly decided to just wear my normal white/high heel shoes back. argh. maybe that's why. But maybe it was already coming. Cause i had the weird feeling. everytime i use my left thigh, i will feel this sharp pain. like cramp. so when i did the sprinting, it's like the more i run, the more i felt the cramp. like my thigh muscle is going to tear kind of feeling. freaking painful.

It already happened. IDK what to do now. I think maybe i torn something in my knee again. i think it's a little swollen. cannot really tell maybe because i am too fat. >.< but something is moving in my knee. idk whether i should tell my mother. i just told her that i hurt my knee again. then she say i'd better not tear anything again. argh. it's not that i want to tear anything wad. haixx. i don't want to be crippled. zzz. why can everyone else be fine after pt but not me? why must everything happen to me.argh?!?

i'm crazy now. emo. but i must be happy. force myself to smile. >.<

It's been more than 1 week since I last posted.

What happened:

• 9th January: my 16th birthday. went to commonwealth judo championship briefing. I know that is a little bit late but Thanks everyone who wished me happy birthday. :)
• 10th January: first day of the championship. it ended like at 7+ (luckily we didn't wait for the victory ceremony to end)
  
• 11th & 12th january: no sch because of championship but it ended earlier. LOL at all the stalkings. haha

IDK whaat else to add. but i finished 3 of my R&Rs. I am amazing right? 3 more to go. Must hand in on wed. >.< IH SIA is screwed. hahaha

yay. I am happy :):):)

Great it's been one week since I posted. Great great great. I don't know what to post about.

I gotta new phone. The phone is kinda retarded but cool I guess. It has qwerty keyboard. :D:D haha

We are like having friday training. I am sad. Not a day to rest in between trainings. I must make myself get used to it man. If not I will get some mental disorder worrying to much about training.

We got a new co form this year who is like my cousin's cousin. Later he go complain to my cousin about how bad my la is. I very scared. >.< whatever. I must hope that he doesn't realise that I am his cousin's cousin! If not DIE!

Everything is like almost the same as last year. Lessons and everything else. I didn't really have the feeling that we had a long break in between. I hope that I can still remember what was taught last year. I threw away my IH assignments lah. like what the shit. now i don't know what to do about the first assignment. great.

SIAs are crazy this year. (I just remembered that i have to check what's fir bio sia on the lms!) okay. like all of them are due like so fast. Chinese and IH esp. and LA R&R... I just have to laugh about it. XD

Life's great once again. and i am going to be 16 soon. zzz

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!~

115th post

yeah. i shall post again. because i am so so bored.

i am just sian of everything now. 2 days of training camp is over. I don't even feel anything about the 3rd day at all. i feel like training camp is over already.

School is starting like next week (did i get the date right? HCI is starting 1 wk later like WTS) I still have like 1 thousand HW not done. I don't know whether I am going to do it or not. HW + SIAs = BULLSHIT (omg i am so vulgar)

I think 2 consecutive days of training makes my left knee bad. I just like squat down today. then suddenly something happened to my knee. like omgg lah. now i don't really dare to put my whole weight down when i squat anymore.

sigh man... i wanna lose weight. lose like a lot a lot of weight. until i am like 46
let's see what else should i talk about... nothing else i am just bored.

I wanna watch a NC 16 movie for my birthday but there apparently is like none coming out soon enough... sad. :(

114th

very very long never post already. i am bored.

yesterday i went out (finally) with my OM team. haha. like finally. i leave my house. and finally we had OM outing. went to watch Avatar 3D and kbox. we sang for like almost 5 hours. crazy. the person don't want to chase us away. >.<

i think i am dead for my R & R. srew it lor. i only found like an article today. like for environment. dunnoe when i will decide to write my R & R / find other articles. maybe later today. if not i dunnoe when.

tomorrow's christmas! .hahha. i don't really feel the excitement though. i guess i am old already. lol.

next week is like training camp. I don't really feel anything about it also. I think i am like dead already. >.< rawr. whatever. i guess that's my way of thinking. "WHATEVER!!"

RONZA's here again. sian. i need gold. like lots and lots of gold. i want to buy the chrome drillbot. it would be a great christmas present. anybody want to give my gold??? :D

i am bored

i was trying to do my math self study topic on statistics. then it's like i totally dunnoe what is like assumed mean. like wth. the teacher also nv teach before. then everything after that part i dunnoe how to continue already. so i decided to search the net for what assumed mean is and i got this



i am disappointed man. im just trying to earn super brie by using the yahoo search but i turns out so bad. i shall just use google when searching for these kind off stuff. =.=

110th post

so it's true that nobody visits my blog. whatever.

i've finally finished my nyaa cip.yay. i am happy that i have accomplished something. lol

one more week of training and then there will be 2 weeks of break. yay. then after that camp. lol

i must go learn a skill for nyaa man. dunnoe what to do. anybody want to go find something with me? DX

christmas is coming man. so fast. then soon it will be 2010. hah

my birthday coming in like 1 mth and 4 days. going to be 16 already. lol. argh. old already man.

sian. bla bla bla

let's have some lady GaGa man:

please tag if you ever see this. and tag everytime you come here. i not i don't post liao!!!! rawr

lol

came back from shanghai.

i am lazy to post now.

i feel tired.

there's like so many things to say but i am lazy to think about it and type it once again. >.<

i am sick too.

i don't want to go to the doctor.

my temperature is like constantly above 37 lol not exactly fever but not very good though

forget it i don't want to post anymore. byebye :O

yay i am posting at the airport now. XD

idk when i am going to post again man.
last post before going to shanghai. yay

byebye singapore. :)

Today is sesame street's 40th birthday. yay. lol. i didn't watch sesame street when i was young though. couldn't understand them. =.= lol

went for my last training before going to shanghai. o.o i was late for like half an hour. >.<

i finally felt like i was going to shanghai already. i didn't really feel like a few days ago. i was like thinking about how i still have training and how i haven't get my passport and how i still have to do ih sia. then now i suddenly feel that i am going to shanghai like tmr tmr. haha. is it a good thing? whatever.

yay. i shall slack and slack and slack in the days without training. :)

I wanted to embed a video here but i realized that it's disabled. SAD.

this is the link though. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DOAKOMHZgCM

GO WATCH IT! :D it's about tamagotchi and the new puppy thingy

Today is the last day of school. I don't know whether it's good.
Going to shanghai like next thursday morning. I don't feel it coming.

By the way, I've finally managed to download the full version of Cooking Mama to my ipod touch. I asked my sis to play. (my mum said that it's a stupid game. >.<) So she was like playing it, cooking/making some fried prawn thingy.

Sis: F***
Me: what? what did you say?
Sis: I dropped the prawn
Me: so you have to say the f-word?
Sis: I very long never say already
Me: So last time you always say?
Sis: ...

yay. it's a lame convo.

I am dreading training. Once I think about training, time seems to past very slowly. Like SHIT!

yay. I love playing Tap Tap Revenge.

BTW, while I was typing this, my sis came in and saw. so she said: do you have to tell everybody that I say...

LOL!

yay. i am going to get my ipod touch tmr. should be when i reach home after training. perhaps this will motivate me for training tmr. XD yay. haha

it's like so slackish now. i feel like i have so many slack stuff to do.

1. play maple
2. watch kang xi lai le everyday
3. watch taohuaxiaomei
4. watch haipaitianxin (so many shows to watch)
5. play mousehunt (not a very hard thing to do)
6. play all my facebook games esp. bejeweled( this is hard cause other stuff are just too tempting esp. maple)
7. go blog surfing
8. watch/download movies
9. download new songs

see so many things to do. :(

and this song keep running in my head today. >.<

I want to post something but i dunnoe what to post. I've been mapling recently. MC + LPQ. gah. i mapled for 4 hours today. i think i am going to be addicted. cannot stop.

haha

I keep on thinking about what will happen to my mousehunt when i go to china. omg. so i decided to go back to the lab to hunt for rb pot. i had 49 also not enough. i think cause i go spend my money on the magma base. sian. cannot regret man. must buy more swiss cheese so that there will be enough for the 14 days.

thinking of training just makes me feel very very very scared/sad. like 6 more trainings before going to china. >.< let it faster be over!!!

one thing that makes my happy now is the ipod touch i've ordered. idk when it's going to arrive man. the date on the website says tmr or the day after tmr. but i am not sure when exactly. cause the thing say they haven't ship yet. :( gah. nvm i am going to get it soon. :)

I had a weird dream like last night. so long never dream already. i think it's so weird that i think that it's a nightmare? but it's not exactly scary. it this dream happens to some other ppl, i don't even think that they will feel that it's scary. hmmm. i wonder what i am feeling exactly now. why did i dream of such things? it's not impossible to happen in real life. it's like totally real. but some sort not possible. cause i dreamt i went to HC to do something. everyone in NY had to go HC book store or something. and then something weird happen. hah.

gah. i am sad that i still have school tmr. and the whole of this week.

btw. i love singapore. Whee~

btw go to my cousin's blog to help her vote!!! TYVM.
http://superficial-world.blogspot.com

yay. i've changed my blogskin. lol. it's like new. i guess. so i think nobody will have it so soon?

nvm. finished collecting all the papers today. my msg for EOYs is 2.11 which is like quite okay but i would have gotten less than 2 if i didn't fail my LA. :( and surprisingly i got A1 for my IH. I am totally amused by myself. It's like the first A1 for humans EVER! I thought I would do badly like everyone else for IH. it's like the point we went into the hall the msg for each class is shown on the screen and like almost every class's msg is about 3++ and so little ppl got A1 lah. I am totally surprised that I am the few. >.<>.<

and i think i am going to buy ipod touch the refurbished one 16GB. yay. it's $308. yay. yay. yay.
hahahahahah. I shall be happy today. XD

don't think that your smile can hide all your sadness

I'm blogging again because life sux. I hate this lah. It's like all so screwed. I just keep on feeling like crying. IDK. Why do you have to be like that? What did I do??? Do you just have to make me like this? Is that what you want? Me, feeling so horrible and wanting to cry everyday. i hate you.

Today is the first day getting back eoys results. I did not bad for chem and physics. but i fail my LA. whatever manz. i don't care about LA. All i did what to say that I failed my LA and you said that I am not good. what's wrong? wait till one day i decide to fail all my subjects and see what you have to say. but that day will never come. because i don't want to sacrifice my results just to see what you have to say.

First training today. I was like so scared about training these few days. i feel weird. it's like i've lost the feeling of training. I wonder what i've been doing for the trainings last time. It's like i keep telling myself that i have to start training like everyone else. but when i did training today, after a while my knee is pain again. idk what happened okay. it's like so long never pain already. it's like a strain. and it sucks. I think i suck. I always suck. I was already very bad at judo now i am even worse. whatever. all i have to do is to pass through all the trainings next year and i will be done. I don't want to go for competitions whatsoever. it doesn't matter to me at all. I just don't want to risk myself of getting more injuries. i am very scared about this. i don't even want to go for any selections for school team because i know i won't even get in. what's the point? go there and just embarass myself. it's so irritating.

I wanna cry. byebye

It's time.

EOYS are over!!! GAGAGA.

blah blah blah.. it's time to slack and have fun. stayed back today to wait for sheryin and youming. we watched yulebaifenbai in class man. For 1 hour man! Luckily when we finished they came back. then we went to cineleisure to eat egg noodle which i finished in like 5min according to adelle cause i was freaking hungry. seriously. then we went to hmv to search for the auntie lucy dvd which made us seem very weird. >.< we searched for like super long and finally managed to find it. and then we decided to go to ion orchard. blah. along the way we walked around taka cause apparently sheryin wanted to look at winx club stuff? haha. and we finally reached ion. blah. then we walked around for freaking long until everybody's like damn tired. haha. then youming wanted to go to the toilet. the toilet in ion is like OMG?! you won't understand until you see it. haha. then we walked to far east plaza to buy cheapo earrings? but i didn't buy. haha. we ate fried mars balls which was like fried banana. then we went home. blah. we walked for do long man!

and tmr's sleepover. XD it's going to fun! I guess! I haven't pack my things yet. >.<
blah blah.

and i just feel like saying this okay.
i am single okay. i got no boyfriend. so don't anyhow say already

whatever

I wonder why i still blog. it's like i am posting when nobody tags. i am sad. please tag okay. if you ever read this. you have to tag no matter what.

life sucks man. i dunno why i feel so sucky. it's like i feel like i have nothing else to do anymore. life's like freaking boring. like a piece of shit man. blah. Nothing is going inside my mind. I cannot think and I have nothing to think about. Is this good? My mind is literally blank. wth. i dunno i dunno i dunno. rawr.

nowadays i keep feeling like swearing. saying vulgarities. this never happened before okay. it's gross retarded and bad. but I just keep doing it. i don't like it lah. i am like having internal conflict/tension thingy like the characters in the text we do in LA man. omg.

blah blah blah. i am so freaking sian. bored. sick. out of my mind. empty. okay i have limited vocab. whatever.

btw. whatever was voted as the most irritating word.

I added the music player to my blog recently but i just realised that it is very contradictory. It's like I have so many videos on my blog. So when people come to my blog, they will watch the videos right? Unless they don't, then coming to my blog doesn't even make sense. So with the music playing, nobody can watch the videos properly right? that's why nowadays i don't really listen to music when i am using the com cause i am youtubing. :) I think I should remove the music player. hahahahahah

More Videos

I realised that my blog is full of youtube videos. But i don't care. youtube is so nice and cool. Here is another youtube video. By HappySlip. About my favourite facebook. :)



lol!

Well, this is embarrassing

This is what I got when I opened my mozilla firefox just now. When I saw the "Well, this is embarrassing." I was like ????? o.o? Haha. I didn't know firefox uses this kind of stuff. But that was because I just shut down my laptop without closing my windows. Haha. But i think the things i searched is more embarrassing then what happened to mozilla firefox. I actually searched for zhangyu on baidu. like so embarrassing. (auntie lucy) hahaha

Youtube Video of the Week - Barbie Girl by Zac Efron?

Hi Barbie
Hi Ken!
Do you wanna go for a ride?
Sure Ken!
Jump In...

I'm a barbie girl, in the barbie world
Life in plastic, it's fantastic!
you can brush my hair, undress me everywhere
Imagination, life is your creation
Come on Barbie, let's go party!

I'm a barbie girl, in the barbie world
Life in plastic, it's fantastic!
you can brush my hair, undress me everywhere
Imagination, life is your creation

I'm a blond bimbo girl, in the fantasy world
Dress me up, make it tight, I'm your dolly
You're my doll, rock'n'roll, feel the glamour in pink,
kiss me here, touch me there, hanky panky...
You can touch, you can play, if you say: "I'm always yours"

(uu-oooh-u)

I'm a barbie girl, in the barbie world
Life in plastic, it's fantastic!
you can brush my hair, undress me everywhere
Imagination, life is your creation

Come on Barbie, let's go party!
(Ah-ah-ah-yeah)
Come on Barbie, let's go party!
(uu-oooh-u)
Come on Barbie, let's go party!
(Ah-ah-ah-yeah)
Come on Barbie, let's go party!
(uu-oooh-u)

Make me walk, make me talk, do whatever you please
I can act like a star, I can beg on my knees
Come jump in, bimbo friend, let us do it again,
hit the town, fool around, let's go party
You can touch, you can play, if you say: "I'm always yours"
You can touch, you can play, if you say: "I'm always yours"

Come on Barbie, let's go party!
(Ah-ah-ah-yeah)
Come on Barbie, let's go party!
(uu-oooh-u)
Come on Barbie, let's go party!
(Ah-ah-ah-yeah)
Come on Barbie, let's go party!
(uu-oooh-u)

I'm a barbie girl, in the barbie world
Life in plastic, it's fantastic!
you can brush my hair, undress me everywhere
Imagination, life is your creation

I'm a barbie girl, in the barbie world
Life in plastic, it's fantastic!
you can brush my hair, undress me everywhere
Imagination, life is your creation

Come on Barbie, let's go party!
(Ah-ah-ah-yeah)
Come on Barbie, let's go party!
(uu-oooh-u)
Come on Barbie, let's go party!
(Ah-ah-ah-yeah)
Come on Barbie, let's go party!
(uu-oooh-u)

Oh, I'm having so much fun!
Well Barbie, we're just getting started
Oh, I love you Ken!


I like this!

EOYs part 1 over

LA chinese and IH are all over now. All the tough papers for me are all over. Perhaps not all because there's still like BIO?! But most of it are gone now. I hope I don't screw anything up. I am so amazed that I can actually remember the stuff I typed/planned for IH essay and wrote 2.5 pages of it in like half an hour. I hope I can do well in my essay. But I actually didn't realise that the similarity question was like How are souces C and D similar?!?! And I wrote one similarity and one difference which is like retarded. I spend like so much time thinking about what difference to write lah. And some more when I was answering that question, the IH teacher was like invigilating my class and she was looking at what I was writing also. So freaky. I was still thinking at that point of time when I was writing whether I was writing something wrong cause she was like staring at my paper. Sian. And math. haixx. I am so sad that I actually saw the question wrongly. :( nvm. even if i see it correctly I still cannot do it. I mean almost everyone else cannot do it. For what I've seen. forget it. It's like 5 marks. I can still get the A1. But perhaps I would get some stupid mistakes somewhere else in the freaking paper cause the whole of yesterday I was like in the headache mode. My head was like freaking painful. When I did math, I hurted even more. And I was in a like half-sleeping mode also. My eyes were like damn dry and I wanted to sleep. But the main thing was I chiong the math paper cause I thought there were still like a lot of questions that I haven't do. But it turned out that I was fast. >.< And a lot of people didn't finish the paper. lol. I did the linear law question and I dunno whether I made the right choice. Cause the question is like only 3 parts and each part is like a lot of marks. But I thought the question was like easy. I think I do wrongly already. Means that I lost a lot of marks. And most of the people chose the other question. I think I am screwed man. sian. But there is still another paper to save me.

I think I should start mugging like tmr. No point mugging today cause I have to go out. I don't understand why people wants me to bring my stuff out to mug outside. Like people having family gathering why must you mug?! Crazy. Might as well relax and slck when there is time right. If you want me to mug then I stay at home.

Home Learning

Today is like the first day of homelearning and tomorrow is the Higher Chinese Eoys. Like SHIT?

But never mind. I woke up at like 7.45 today (I am amazed by myself) and started slacking until now. I ate so many things that I feel bloated. >.<

I think I should not touch my laptop again. Until... .IDK!!!

but anyways. i felt like posting a youtube video today.

The Professor Wikipedia. yay.



Please tag. :(

stay happy. :D

hmmm... blogger is finally all right. I hope I will continue to be alright. :D

yesterday and today is like damn shitty day. I suddenly feel all stressed up and emo cause EOYs are like next week. And i didn't even really started on my IH. It's like you have so many things to do in one whole week end + holiday. So many things to mug. Plus teacher still give us so many revision paper plus homework. it's like coming all together. Like suffocating. haixx. I was like super emo in the morning. and i woke up late this morning. it's like argh.

i shall make my way past the EOYs. rawr. Chiong. haha. whatever. i shall continue to do what i am supposed to do now. byebye
:D:D:D:D

1 year

I just realised I've used this blog for 1 year. It's amazing. haha. I didn't thought that I would keep using this url for this long. I think my url is so cool okay. I'm not going to change it. hahaha. My first post on this blog was like on 1st September last year. So it's like more than one year already. YAY. what a great acomplishment.

Oh. grading is like later. in a few hours. eek! I hope nothing goes wrong. I won't hurt my knee or anything like that. sianz. it's like i feel very scared but i cannot be so scared. >.<

whatever, i must go iron my clothes since we are supposed to wear our uniform today. :( i thought we didn't have to since like training has stopped and today isn't a training at all.

byebye
and good luck for my grading. :D

big egg

that guy is a cheapo!!

i'm bored. very bored.

It's like september holidays and eoys are like in 4weeks??? frankly, i can't wait for eoys to be over. but i know i have to face the facts. :(

i attempted to study ih NI conflict today. and i'm like only done with the reasons for conflict. i'm such a failure man. sianz

my whole september holiday week is full. It just means that i don't even get to stay at home for one whole day. and grading is like next sunday. like rawr. i don't know what to say about grading. i don't know whether i am going to fail/pass it or not. seriously. eek!

my msh for this term is pretty screwed based on all the tests. the only ones i am satisfied with are chinese (which everyone scored well) and math (if i fail my math eoy, i am going to kill myself. trigo!!!). that's all. end of story. this means that i must do well in my eoys which i guess is quite impossible. i hope and hope that my overall be around 2. i don't hope for less than 2 this time. around 2 is enough for me.

shall stop thinking about studies. hah. let me write about a auntie i saw on the mrt on my way home friday afternoon.

i was sitting on the mrt (the reserved seat. yes i know i am not supposed to sit there but there were a lot of empty seats) and the auntie was sitting directly opposite me. which means she is also sitting on the reserved seat. ok. then i saw the auntie like eating a sweet. lacerol. she was holding on to the box and like tryin to squeeze it under her thigh. at first i didn't understand what she was trying to do at all. she was like pushing the box behind and then the box dropped on the floor. okay i guess she was trying to throw the box away. she was trying to squeeze into the space between the glass and the seat. but it failed so the box dropped on the floor.

you see. the mrt floor is always quite clean and you don't really see objects lying on the floor. so this box is like 'outstanding'. so i keep staring at the box and staring at the auntie.

after a few minutes, the auntie felt guilty of something. she picked up the box! haha. at first i thought she decided not to litter on the mrt. but. you know what. she placed the box on the ledge behind the seat. like =.= =.= =.= i was totally diao. so disappointing. and she left the train. :( leaving the lacerol box on the ledge on the mrt.

i seriously don't understand why people want to litter. is a dustbin that hard to find? or are you so busy that you have no time to put your litter into the dustbin??? That you have to leave it on the clean mrt. LOL!

yay. i've finished my story.
i should continue to mug my ih now. ????>.<

youtube is addictive.

www.youtube.com is totally addictive. I just realised it like yesterday. I spent like about 3h (or even more) on youtube. I wasn't like watching taiwanese dramas/variety shows. I swear I wasn't. I was watching videos made my the most suscribed users on youtube. It's freaking funny. Even funnier than the taiwanese vareity shows (k. even though i can understand that some people think that they are lame). But since like so many people suscribe to them, it proves that they are entertaining. :D

A few posts ago, i was talking about pogobat/Dan brown guy. He's like rank 20/21 on the most suscribed list.
Yesterday, i went to watch nigahiga, (he is like top in the list now. Just became first like a few days ago. He is freaking entertaining.) and Fred (he's the second now. used to be the first. But i don't really like him cause of his voice/fake voice. It just seems very irritating after awhile). And i saw kevJumba. He's not really funny. But the videos of his dad is funnier. should watch. :D

Oh. Go play at friv.com
recommendation from adelle when she was like in the toilet shitting (sry adelle) and i was chionging my IH assigment. She was so amazed that i actually listened to her and play with her. There are a lot of games there. And adelle actually played them until 2am midnight. lol

Oh. I feel like buying the K.O.3sanguo watch. it's quite cool. but it's like 21 bucks. should i buy should i buy should i buy?
blogger has some problems and i cannot post the picture here. :( but it's super cool. :)

tmr is hungry ghosts festival

wah. adelle request me to update leh. shows that i very entertaining. XD o.o so i shall update since i am nice.

i went to the doctor like last friday (and missed the founders' day fun fair [FFF] :( ) and the doctor said i am okay already. for now. and i can choose to do the other op like next year. and my next appointment is like next year july. hahaha. dunno whether it's something to be happy about. perhaps yes?

so does this mean that i can run/jump/do judo/go for grading/comps? i really don't know. seriously. i thought the doctor would tell me whether i could. but instead the doctor asked me the question. He was like asking me whether i can/is still doing judo or not. i dunnoe how to answer him lah. it's like i am doing but i am not doing. i also dunno what i am doing exactly. haixx.

but i've been running. yes. i think i can run. just feel a little little bit pain on my knee after running. and i don't dare to jump. lol. rawr. maybe i can just overcome my fear or something. maybe i got some phobia(haha) of injuring my knee again. really scary.

learnt kata today. surprised that i can still do most of the throws. i just cannot do tomo. i don't dare the 'kick' the person's stomach. XD the rest is still okay actually. but i am just scared about the shiai part. it's like i so long never train already lah. DX then now must do shiai. >.< dunno whether lose liao can pass grading or not. eek!

oh. i got back most of the papers for block tests already. except IH. my marks are definitely screwed this term. sian lah. DX eek!

i have such a bad ending for my blog.

goodbye.

blahblah

Haha. went to adelle's house to PLAY today. we have anticipated it for so long. Actually we didn't do anything much. But it was quite fun. XD

we watched barbie (LOL), ate prawn noodles, played rewujie (shan zai auditionsea), table tennis (OMG. why did i play table tennis again), twister, guess who, indian poker (super retarded game), chinese poker (the one opposite to indian poker), heart attack/crazy hitting the thighs game (HAHAHA). and we went home. WAH so fast.

going to have training again tmr. argh. yesterday's training is like super duper slack. i can say it's the slackest training ever. idk what is going to happen during tmr's training. but perhaps not as slack as yesterday's. sian. :(

oh. i guess i am missing sch/founder's day/funfair on friday. which is sort of sad. missing out the fun stuff. It seems fun. i have to go for the doctor's appointment that day. i think i am going to confirm the date for my next op. Eek! lol.

and. OMG. grading is like in septemeber. i seriously don't know what i should do lah. i can't even throw ppl properly how can i do grading. and got shiai some more. but if i don't do grading, then i will be like forever orange belt or something. argh...

physics is a great disappointment. i hope my daily work can compensate for the test. must mug more for EOYs.

80th

I've not downloaded Jam Hsiao's new album yet. But I wanted to hear the songs. so i went on youtube. And i realised i love this song:

Say a lil something


it's like so groovy.
Enjoy. XD

pogobat

Hah. I've been slacking again. I was like thinking about what to watch you youtube cause i was like so bored and I wanted to take a break, so i randomly clicked on one of the featured video today. And what i saw was this:



It's like so funny. the magibon. (especially if you go and see what the user is like). and harry potter.

So i went on to watch the other videos. And I realised that he was the user whom i learnt to solve my rubiks cube from. WOW. i totally didn't realised it was the same person at all. But his videos on the solving of rubiks cube was really great. (and he got like a youtube award for the video. o.o i never even knew that a youtube award exists. btw the trophy is like so cool. haha)Even people like me can understand. Oh. I am amazed by the fact that I could actually understand his english. seriously. haha. there's like only THIS few caucasians that i cam understand. And i can understand his.





haha. seriously. go watch his videos/vlogs/whatever.

(BTW. IH LA and BIO ARE OVER!!)

eek!

Block test is like tmr. hah. and i am slacking once again. I feel like drinking coffee. To keep me awake. If not I keep on feeling like sleeping. It's like every morning I wake up, I eat my breakfast, then i feel like sleeping again. That's how retarded it is. So i must keep myself awake so that i can mug. rawr.

oh i am supposed to stop using the com at 12.30pm which is now. so that i can go mug my bio. esp. the photosynthesis. OMG. but i cannot bear to leave my com. and my restaurant city. and my facebook. D: so sad. :( ok.

i shall go offline now. I shall remove the door in my restaurant city and close my restaurant for today. I hopw tomorrow can be over soon. it's like the 3 deadly subjects in one day. DX good luck to myself.

i want to slack today.

Hah. I shall slack a little bit today even though it's an early day and there's supposed to be lots of time for me to mug. but nvm. I just watched kangxi. (I totally missed like ~2 days of it can?!) and spam facebook applications, esp mafia wars. (i still dunnoe what is so nice about it but i still play it) And I am like playing restaurant city, not really again cause i didn't really play it before. I am like only level 4 and poor.

I shall post about stuff that happened today.

In the morning when i was sitting on the train (purple line), there's this malay lady/woman/girl sitting like opposite me. i see her quite often recently. The train was like moving and you know what she did? She took out a sock from her bag and took off her shoes and tried to wear her sock. I was like WTH! why would somebody want to wear a sock in public? It's like totally unglam OKAY. And some more the sock has like 3 holes, one of them at her big toe. Ok! then she wear her shoe and act like nothing has happened obviously. I thought she was going to wear another sock but she didn't. Kind of weird. Then what? she took off the same shoe and started adjusting her sock. You know why? because she toe is like stuck in the hole. OMG. damn funny and ridiculous.

Why would people wear their sock like on the MRT train?! :O it's like so embarrassing! (auntie lucy. haha) Even i feel paiseh for her lah. if some other tourist sees it then he will think that singaporeans all wear socks in public! o.o

hahaha. i shouldn't feel stress/emo!!! argh
yay

whatever1

I'm so hungry. I just spent 2.5hours sleeping when block tests are just next week. I am too pro. I was like so cold that I dreamt that I was in China. Seriously. Idk why I am feeling like so cold. And my left is is like seriously super painful. It's just weird. I've been like so tired every since last night. Perhaps yesterday was just too exciting. haha. and yay i finally got a cupcake tree. I planted/waited for so long! I am like still thinking about what is so fun about mafia wars. Can someone tell me?

Haixx... I must do my chinese thing already. and my math. why do teachers all give things/ws for block tests so last minute!? We have better things to do/mug!!

random4

Block tests are like next week. Gah. and guess what i haven't actually prepared properly for my speech yet. Pro right? i bet nobody can win me. We were like supposed to be prepared since like week 2? And now it's alread week 5. I shall prepare it later cause i think pt will sort of chiong finish all the speeches by this week (or even tmr cause i suspect he wanted to chiong today). I am so screwed lah. Seeing other ppl like so relax after their speeches, I feel like rawr. lion lion. ahahaha.

finals are like tmr. It's so exciting. haha. I know it can only be exciting when you are not the one playing. haha. which is me. XD I cannot think about what is after the finals lah. School and block tests and everything else. it's like eek! My brain is going to burst some day. no wonder my brain grew in size (into double brain). soon it will be triple brain and what's the 4th? whatever. that's what i mean. and then my brain will burst. woohoo (o.o) then it will be the end of the world man... OMG I AM GETTING CRAZAY!!

but anyway. my mum is like addicted to facebook. haha. nvm. whatever

i'm glad that my hair grew longer already. But it still suck lah. i don't understand why people say my hair is cute. it's like so ugly can! maybe that's what they mean. haha

and people are getting sick recently. haha. dunnoe why.

blogger is getting screwed too...

I was like really sad/emo/irritated like yesterday night and this morning. I don't know why. I feel like so stressed. So stressed that I cannot think and cannot do anything properly. It's like I just keep thinking about all the homework and SIAs and the upcoming block test and blahblah. And the more I think, the more I couldn't think. Do I make sense? But anyway, i think i am quite okay now. perhaps still a little emo. haixx

today was like the c divs prelims. it's so sad that we couldn't go and support them. but it's good that they got into the finals. JYJY for finals. :D tmr is the b divs. I just wonder if the team can win or not. I must believe that they can and they will.

JY for b divs tmr. and yay. i am going to watch tmr. haha..!!

argh i shall stop thinking about everything. argh argh argh

whatever!!!

EMO. please don't read this post.

It's been like a week since I'd posted. I am getting bored. Emo Emo Emo. I don't know.

I've been like getting muscle aches from trainings recently. I am such a failure man...

Term 3 is like super screwed. All the SIAs' deadline. Chionging like mad for almost everything. And block test is in like 3 weeks? I just still have the feeling that the term has just started. I'm not into mugging/anything like that. I'm like so dead. Procrastinating and slacking. I've seemed to lost all my motivation about studying. I just feel like slacking and slacking. Which will lead me to no where or perhaps hell.

Teams are like next week. Even though it's not really related to me. Sigh. I feel so sad. idk why. Just keep on sighing and sighing for unknown reason. Even my mum asked me. I just feel tired and everything. I am bored. I am not like super stress from HW and SIAs. I am such a slacker. And yet I am sighing. I am so qian bian right? I don't even know what I am doing now. I don't do my homework but go online and do random stuff like adding weeds and stealing crops in Barn Buddy on Facebook. I'm so useless. Argh. I cannot stand myself. I hate myself man...

Haixxx.... Perhaps life's not so good...

yay!

GAH. so long never post le. haha.

I CUT MY HAIR like AGAIN!! T.T and i regret it GREATLY. Now i look like squiward. DX So sad. my hair is so short that it is too light. so it pops up and makes my head look really big at the back. Looks like I got double brain. and i look like this.

LOOK AT THE HEAD!. DX DX for ppl who don't know who this is, this is squidward from spongebob square pants. I post this doesn't mean that i want to acknowledge that i am squidward HOR! ADELLE!!!

I started training again! Even though i still cannot run/get thrown etc, i started my training again. yay. but i had like muscle aches on my arms like the next day after my weight training. i feel like so sad. i've like lost all my muscles. but they are now growing back. ! :D (which also means that i will gain more weight. T.T)

I like to play barn buddy on facebook. it's so fun. but i never feed my dog and people come stealing my stuff. DX don't steal my crops! hehe

i must study. mug mug mug. but stay happy and stress free! XD XD XD

term3

The biantai called me today again. this is so sad. i already deleted him is facebook. why is he still calling me? it is not that i am very bad to ask him to go and find other ppl and disturb other ppl but he have like so many ppl in in facebook account why he go call me again? EEK! 真是个死变态!

It's like the second day of school today. I've been waiting for school to start. i just don't like the part about handing in the homework. thinking about it makes me stress. but i just cannot stop thinking about the homework i've not done. k. whatever. i shall stop talking about homework and making myself freak out. k. but wait. i shall just remind myself that i should do my 长文缩短 later. and i must do my yuedu thingy and redo my bio sia tmr!!! k. shut up homework.

hmmm... what should i talk about then? erm. erm. erm. oh. i think i should start training maybe next week. my knee is like still swollen and warm. idk whether it will be better next week but i think should be can lah. i should train my left leg thigh muscle and make it as strong as my right leg. i think it's because my left leg is weak that's why i tore the ligament. so i must train is to be stronger then maybe there's no need to do the another operation. which also means that i just leave my ligament torn which is scary. whatever.

and oh. another sad thing i suddenly think of. yesterday we received the schedule for the 2nd block test. it's like i finally took the schedule for the first block test out from my folder for not very long then now have a new piece of paper already. totally no chance for me to put my jiro picture that i planned to do. DX sad right. 一个接一个 好惨啊！

pt is like so gross. with moustache! eek!!!!!! change the way he look! for what?! nobody ask him to change lor... unless he is like trying to attract some ppl...

lol
haha. i shall try to enjoy the life of term 3 eek!

and oh. chinese new year next year is on 14/2 valentines' day! haha

crazy me

hmmm... i realise i didn't post about me cutting my hair. yes. i've cut my hair. it's like so short now. but actually i didn't really feel that it's a lot of difference. perhaps other ppl will feel that i look very different. but i've been staying at home so not a lot of ppl have seen my new hair. perhaps i shall take a pic some day and change my dp on FB and windows live messenger.

It's like one more day to school reopen. OMG. I keep telling myself that i should do my homework but i just cannot get on to do it. RAWR. I think i am dead about my chinese compo. it's like i don't even have an idea about what/how to write. why did the teacher give us this kind of question? Aiyo. tsk. but i managed to finish my bio sia by anyhow doing it. does anyone know how to write the report for math written task (the bowl one)? lol. and i think i give up on my LA compre already. first question, the scenery... then idk how to write already. haiix. sian. ahhhh....

i'm going to get my results for my ballet exam later. hmmm. i wonder what i will get this time. rawr. i don't think i can even dance anymore. so this will be like my last exam. Eek! RAWR

how come our school no e-learning. i think they should give us e-learning lor. since like so many ppl from our school go overseas during the holidays. sure a lot of ppl have the LOA one. then might as well everyone stay at home... haha. i am like talking crap.

i'm like so bored. i don't dare to use my laptop liao cause i scared my mum go confiscate my laptop (AGAIN). and i don't want to do my homework even though i think i should do it. ahhhh. aiyo. i don't know lah. i am getting crazy already. i think about the homework i have then damn sian already. sian sian sian. i hope school starts soon. then i can get over the sian-ess of the holidays. then won't have to think about so much homework also...

i think i am like getting very slack already. i must try and get myself out of the slack mood mannn. if not arh... the next block test die liao. whatever. aiya. IDK LAH. RAWR. i am like to irritated by myself. perhaps i will get crazy soon. 精神分裂 man. seriously.

i am getting crazy. SAVE ME!!!~

there you go...

not really a lot of things happening recently.

hmmm... about school work, i finally finish my IH assignment. great achievement. hah. and i sort of did my bio assignment yesterday at kap. don't want to do already. LA compre... idk. lol. maybe i should do my math concept map tmr or later.

school is starting next week. confirm no extended holidays. actually i didn't really want the extended holidays cause i heard there will be no september holidays if they extend the holidays not. I wanted e-learning more. can use com. haha. yay. nicer lor. But i heard there is one h1n1 case from our school. but i think that doesn't mean anything lor. it doesn't increase the possibility of getting the school closed or something. if it's confirm that means they will quarantine the person wad. so it's impossible that the person come to school and spread to other ppl. unless before they confirm she got the virus, she go some where do project and go spread to some other ppl from our school. then the person still come to school. which i also don't think it will be possible cause they will quarantine the people who comes in touch with the infected person. unless... the person forget that she go talk/meet other ppl.

in anyway, i think i should focus on finishing all my homework by.... hmmm... idk. but i think i will only finish all the homework by this week. which means this sunday. (as sheryl and i have discussed, everyone will chiong on the last day... hahaXD)

yay. now you have something to read, sheryl.
haha.

my sis is going to tell me the story about AYG. yesyes....

I am bored again. After youtube-ing for idk how long. I'm not really going onto facebook recently. Just bored about it. wow. I am finally bored about facebook. Maybe I'm just too free online that facebook doesn't excites me anymore. There are more stuff on youtube. Anyway it's just 康熙来了. nothing else. Pretty lame actually. Me watching kangxilaile and getting addicted about it. So Lame. I cannot stand it myself. Perhaps when school starts, I will start getting to my facebook again.

Went to see the doctor again today. The doctor didn't really say anything. I skipped my physiotherapy on monday because I thought I could do it myself. And I 'threw away' my crutches and decided to walk without it. The doctor just laughed. He keeps on calling me 小妹妹. idk why. haha. I don't look very xiao right? but anyway, he just gave me more MC (until september) and reminded me to go for my physio and take out my stitches next friday. And I won't be seeing my doctor until august. :O

I wonder how they remove the stitches. seem interesting. What is the stitch made of anyway? Because when my mum drop the yellow solution (the one that prevents the infection and the one ppl refuses to add when they have wounds) on my wound the stitches amazingly turned blue. The yellow solution thing is actually iodine. Which means that the stitch has starch!!! :O very amazing right. I think so. unless... idk. at first the stitches were brown then they turned blue. I swear they are blue. if not you can see it tmr. (wait i must check first. whether they are really blue still... yes thay are..) okay. I want to remove my stitches!!! I am waiting. XD

erm. yes. i am going for training tmr. yay. to sit down at the side. so pro right. I'm not supposed to train anyway. I'm not sure for how long. Actually the doctor said i cannot do judo at all. which is sad. i think after a while i should just rawr. you know start training. just don't run lah. if not, i feel retarded. and my mum will ask me to quit judo because i am not doing anything at all. >.< eek. don't want to think about it.

I've finally read finish the book 《妈，亲一下》 by 九把刀. quite interesting lah. phew. yay.

bb
i am going offline to enjoy the world again :D

BIAN TAI

last night, at 5 something am there was some weird person who called/sms me. idk who. but he knows my name and ask me to help him. weird lah. so i called him back. when he answered, he never say anything but i just keep hearing some weird noise like knocking blahblah. but luckily after a while he didn't reply/call me anymore. but i wanted to find out who he is and how he knows my name etc. so i went so search the number online then i saw this girl's wordpress. she just directly type the phone number out lah. and say is some guy's phone number that she added in facebook. and the girl described that guy as some despo facebooker. then i was like. :O facebook. is it i anyhow add people or something. so i quickly go my facebook phonebook. then i scroll down then i saw that number. 83999368. i can memorise already lor. i was like SHIT. that guy's name is Sim Deca. i think. weird name. then i click the information tab. say something like I like girls blahblah stuff. i wonder why i never read the information when i added the person. argh retarded me. i think it's because i see like so many common friends so just add the person without realising that he is some bian tai SHIT. so i quickly deleted the person to prevent such stuff from happening again. so the person is really a BIAN TAI.

beware of BIAN TAIs in facebook. rawr

superrandom1

so long never blog already. rawr.

idk what to blog about also.

everyday stay at home and rot.

whatever. haha

my day in the hospital. :D

yay. i am back home again. yesterday actually. i'm now using crutches to walk around which is like so bu fang bian. D: the doctor said i can put 50% of my weight on my left leg which is my injured leg. so i can still kind of walk with my left leg lah. i hope i can get rid of my crutches soon. it's just very bu fang bian lor.

i was supposed to stay in the hospital for 2 days. but i think the doctor see i recover so fast then he let me come home earlier. better lor. save money. and don't have to stay in the hopsital. so boring and nothing to do. very noisy also. especially at night. the nurses will shout very loud to wake up the ah ma because most of the time the ah ma all cannot hear properly. the nurses will be like "ah ma ah ma..." blah blah. then cannot sleep properly also. and cannot watch tv also. cause there is no tv to watch. when i had nothing to do, i play my sims2 hah. luckily i brought my laptop and my sims2 CD. if not i really nothing else to do liao.

basically, staying in the hospital is really boring. Luckily i'm out already.

When I went to the hospital on thursday morning, as soon as i admitted into the hospital, i change to the operation gown thing already. because the nurse say i am the second in the list to so the operation. So after that was just wait and wait. until some one pushing the bed to my ward come. then i went up the bed and i was pushed away, lying on the bed. It was quite fun actually, getting to be pushed on the bed. haha. my ward was on the 6th floor and the operating theatre was on the 3rd. so we had to take the lift. then for some reason, the people pushing me didn't press the button. so the lift went up instead of going down. then more people came into the lift. the lift was the staff lift. so i guess all the nurses were probably used to taking lifts with patients who are going to be operated on. but for me it was kind of weird. i was like staring at the people like. o.o i just feel weird. it's like i am lying on the bed waiting to be pushed to the operating theatre but i am stuck in the lift. :O haha. when i reach the 3rd floor, i was pushed into some room with a lot of pushable beds. lol. then some one came and ask me what's my name, what time was my last meal, etc. then i was pushed to operating theater 3 if i remember correctly. it was acutally a room outside the operating theatre and not the operating theatre itself. i waited there for quite long actually. i think it's for the doctors and nurses to prepare for the op. the nurse go stick something on my body. idk what lah. then the doctor attempted to put the needle into my hand. he inject something to numb my skin first then poke the thick needle i think. but his first attempt failed. so sadly, i have to inject another needle. which means pain another time. lol. then the nurse attached the drip thing on my needle. i waited and waited and waited. and soon when the doctors were ready, they pushed me into the real operating theatre. they pushed me next to another bed in the room. and guess what? they asked me to climb over to the bed myself. lol. >.< haha

then the doctor inject the anesthesia. then i went to sleep after the few seconds. lol. haha.

when i woke up i was in a room with other patients who just finish their op i think. not really sure. i just remembered i was really really cold. then a few seconds after i woke up i was pushed away to my original bed. then i think i got changed into the hospital shirt. i think i cannot really remember what happened clearly because the anesthesia hasn't really gone off yet. i just felt really tired and sleepy after the op. during dinner time, when i finally could eat something. and it was chicken lor. i wanted to eat. but when i sat up on my bed. i just felt very dizzy. then i see the chicken like so nice and i wanted to eat the chicken. so i ate a little bit of the chicken. then i sort of tasted like the taste of some disgusting thing i think it's the anesthesia thing. so i didn't eat anymore cause it's like so gross. so i lied down on my bed to rest/sleep. then i wanted to go to the toilet. i sat up and sat on the wheelchair my mum pushed for me to the toilet. then after i do my business, i felt like vomitting. so i vomitted in the sink. which is quite sad. cause all my chicken i ate went into the sink. D: haha.

that's about what happened before and after the op. it's quite an interesting experience. haha
yay. i should stop using the com le. later my mum scold me. :o

random3

Thank you to everyone who wished me well. :D I hope I will get well soon too. I won't die tmr (I think). LOL. I watched a video on the knee arthroscope thing which I am going to do tmr on youtube just now. elaine gave me the idea. she said she saw some woman doing operation on the knee on television yesterday and the she had two holes on her knee. I think that's about the same as what is going to happen to me tmr...

The doctor said I am not supposed to eat after 12midnight today. Until after the op i think. LOL. sad. no breakfast tmr. and must reach the hopsital at 8am. so early lor. still must bathe before going. o.o that means i must wake up very early tmr. haixx.

idk what to bring to the hospital tmr. this is retarded. >.< i borrowed about 6 books from the library today. (including the ones i need for my baozhangyuedu thing). I guess i will have time to read in the hospital. Maybe i should bring my doraemon laptop there. is there internet in the hospital? then i can go online hah. in that case, i don't think i will read anymore. haha.

i just feel very weird today. training and everything. and thinking that i am going to do surgery tmr, and after that i have to go on crutches. eek! how am i going to survive lor. >.< i just don't feel like doing anything today. esp. when i think about what is going to happen tmr and after tmr. lol.

whatever.

random2

I actually planned to do my homework today. My mum says i should try and finish my homework before i go for the operation because after that I cannot move around easily. Even though I don't understand how moving around easily is related to doing homework. I shall try to do my math written task (or even the concept map) and my LA compre by today since I've slacked a lot yesterday.

I think I feel quite nervous/scared/excited/idk about the operation. I don't want to be handicapped!!! Eek! I think I should train tmr and on wednesday. If not, I don't know when I can ever train again. lol. seriously. I think my mum wants me to quit judo after this year. But idk what to do. rawr. whatever. shouldn't think about this. yes, i should be happy/whatever.

And after posting this entry, i shall turn off the laptop and try to do my homework. Or maybe I should go eat something first. yay.

I am a slacker. Yay. XD

me knee

Went to see the doctor again today to see my results of my MRI. The report says that my "anterior cruciate ligament is completely torn" and "there is a bucket-handle tear of the medial menicus".

The anterior cruciate ligament is one of the 4 ligaments in the knee and it's completely torn. >.<>.< but I am not going to fix my ligament yet. because the doctor said it's not very neccessary.

I am going to fix my medial meniscus. Ahahah. lol. The medial meniscus is like a padding between the thigh bone and the lower leg bone. My medial meniscus is torn so either I have to remove it or sew it back depending on the situation. And by fixing the medial meniscus, I can straighten my leg again. XD haha.

I am going for surgery next thursday. O.O staying in the hospital for 2 days. then after that i think i cannot train at all liao. actually i am not supposed to train at all already lor. but... whatever. sir is going to say i fake again. =.=

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I managed to finish answering 1(a) of my IH assignment yesterday. I gave up on part (b) because all my notes on similarities blah were filed up in my IH file in school. Maybe when I decided to remember how to do it then I shall start on my IH assignment again.

I've added a wishlist at the side. Even though I am not very sure what I want. LOL. I just randomly add some stuff that I think I want. Haha.

I'm like playing puzzle pirates recently due to my extreme boredom... ? Is there such a thing? Whatever. It just means that I have nothing else to do now. Facebook is getting quite boring. :O Maybe I should watch 终极三国 or something. whatever.

blahblahblah...

river flows in you

This is a video of the song River Flows in you by Yiruma. It's a really nice song. I hope I can play it although it seems a little hard to play. But I shall try my best. hah. XD



I'm so excited. XD

my results/holiday work list

I realise I've been slacking (not that I just realised okay) and not trying to remember what I've did and post on my blog. Even like that I also I want to slack. LOL

Got my report book yesterday. Everything was fine actually. Should I say what my marks are here? Perhaps not. But I'm not disappointed with my marks actually. It's my best marks in my 3 years of NY life. So I'm actually quite glad. My mum said I wasn't trying hard enough yet. She say I am still slacking. Which means if I am hardworking, I will become quite pro. LOL. I'm not sure. I'm not sure whether I've already studied/mug a lot already. Even though I am quite sure I've not studied for my bio... lol. But for math, physics, IH etc. I am sure I didn't study enough. And I don't know how to study for lang arts and chinese. I hope that I can get msg 1.5 something next term. It's really hard I know. And plus, I think next term's work will be harder and the block test is altogether de. So it will be harder to get a better score. Hmmm... Maybe I should just aim less than 2 for my msg again. But I really want to get a better msg. At least not so close to 2. lol. I'm really scared of my score next term. rawr. I think I may not be able to do as well as this term. I'm scared of the block test that is like eoys. So scary. I don't know when I should start mugging lor. It's like rawr. Maybe I shouldn't think about that now. Should just enjoy the holiday/try to finish my sia/holiday hw.

Eh. Should I try to chiong all my hw and enjoy the rest of the holidays? Answer me!!!

Holiday HW/SIAs:

1. Bio SIA - choose from LMS
2. math SIA - learn circle properties?
3. physics SIA - I really don't know what to do about this. DION!!!
4. chem SIA - experiment on detergent!!!
5. chinese SIA - read books/book review + edit report??
6. la SIA - are we suppose to do anything??
7. ih SIA - this is another troublesome one. read magazine/newspapers/books!! lit review.
   
8. chinese cc2 project?? - are we suppose to do anything about this?
9. IH assignment 4
10. Chinese zuo wen 7
11. bio 6.2

that's all. wow that's a lot. I should be freaked out now. And start doing my work. Haha. Please tell me if there is anymore stuff I should add on...

OM TEAM PIC!

I just realise I have no life. Everyday in my life is just slack. And all I post in my blog is about slack stuff, about how slack I am/how I want to slack. LOL I HAVE NO LIFE.

Everyday I just stay at home and slack. I don't know whether it's good or not. I think my life is so sian lah. Not that I want to die or something. I just feel like doing some interesting stuff. But I don't know what. o.o I think my life will either be even more sian or be more interesting.

Haha. I really love my new blog skin. I just feel like it's very nice. and oh. I want to post a picture coped from the om blog. MY OM GROUP!

it's my om group with the trophy we finally got and that we needed to give to the school DX. We didn't even had time to admire it actually. And hk is in the gz costume. lol. Plus, I wasn't wearing my nametag. o.o

haha. XD

blogskin changed

Yay. i just changed my blogskin. Great accomplishment. and the good news is facebook is back to work again. XD

omg. facebook is down. And i have nothing else to do. At least nothing I can think of or you can say that because I am lazy to do other stuff/think of other stuff to do...

Sabbaticals are so sian. I rather have normal lessons. At least have something meaningful to do and you don't have to pay extra money for it. LOL.

I suspect there is something wrong with my sister. Every time when she uses the com, she doesn't want to let me see what she's doing. Obviously there is something wrong with her. Either she is talking to her boyfriend/lesbian partner on msn or watching porn. I suspect these two. idk why. I cannot think of some other reason why she doesn't want to let she see what she is doing.

Anyway... I am thinking of changing my blogskin. Idk what else to change to. When i go to blogskin.com and try finding for another skin that i like, I end up on the page that is my current skin. LOL! my taste haven't change yet. hmmm... should I spend my time choosing another blogskin since facebook is down???

???? :D

LoL. i am sian. seriously. although i seriously have nothing to do/can think of nothing to do, idk. rawr. idk what i am writing.

lol. i can't do table tennis. I don't know why i chose that as my sabs. lol. i am gonna waste like my one week of sabs accomplishing nothing.

murder mystery is sian as predicted. lol.

wah. i am sweating. the weather is just very hot recently. i cannot stand it. i hope it rains soon. rawr... i hope holidays come soon.

:D

wow. i actually didn't fail my IH. i am really really surprised lor. seriously. I didn't even finish my essay. yay

tmr is csm. and i managed to buy a pe t-shirt. haha. woots~

oh. should i talk about my MRI scan today? hmmm... it's really interesting. haha. lol. but I don't really feel like typing anything anymore. maybe i should say it another day. XD

XDXDXD

I realised I've not been posting for quite some time already.

Because I was kind of emo because of my bio marks. haixx... i should stop thinking about it already cause there is nothing I can do about it. wo jiu ren ming ba

Actually i don't really have things to post about...

OH YA!!!! we got our trophy already!!! XD XD XD yay. and we got our small/personal trophies today. cause wangjia/we were desperate and we went to look for fw instead of waiting for the super busy mo to give our trophies to us. she will take forever can. haha

the trophy is in my bag now. i shall take a picture of it and post it soon.

byebye
yay. i am happy. :)

and what is it now? i've gained back the 2kg that i've lost. hmmm... idk whether i should be happy or sad. but anyway, life is back to normal. at least that is what i think. is my life normal? idk.

guess what? we are getting our trophies from the school tmr! XD finally. after one month and a few days, we are getting our trophies. i am gonna take a picture of it ok, and show it to everyone. XD yay. but tmr we are going to give our big trophy to the school. no time to appreciate it. lol. see us during assembly tmr morning. (hope it doesn't rain?)

i still haven't get my ih block test back yet. i wonder when will we get it back. haixx. might as well don't get it back. i don't want to know my marks! >.< i hope i don't get 5/25. it's pathetic ok? alright i just hope i pass. even though i know that if i only pass i won't ever get my msg less than 2 for this term (maybe i will still get. hmmm... will i?)

and i hope and seriously hope that i will get an A1 for my bio. i think i will get it back tmr.

oh. and panel discussion today. i completely forgot what i said can? how am i going to do my reflection? lol.

haha.
life's good (LG)
:D

Wah i feel so full. I guess i ate too much for dinner. Because i was too hungry. And idk why i was so hungry.

Heats today. lol. i hit myself with the javelin the first round. how retarded is that? but somehow i managed to stick the javelin into the ground once. GREAT ACCOMPLISHMENT FOR ME.

I think i have having panel discussion tmr. I dunnoe what to prepare. I scared i prepare already then i never use the stuff i prepared then very wasted. haixx. but i am also scared that i dunnoe what to say. And i think pt gives us very little time to talk. Most of the time, pt is the one talking. I don't understand. Why does he want to be so bad to us? He also don't get any marks for talking. Don't talk lah. what's his problem. people want their oral communications marks ok? it's not that they don't want to talk. You just don't give them enough time to talk what they want to talk about. And pt interrupts people when they want to talk. wth.

wah. i think once i talk about pt i become so angry. no wonder no one wants to marry him.... Why did i get such a teacher for la. rawr

i shouldn't be angry. haixx

whatever
rawr

wah this is my 50th post le. didn't think that i would still manage to post so many :O

hmm... when did i last posted? did i say before that block tests are over? nvm. I can repeat myself again. XD. yay block tests are over. lol...

I hope I can get A1 for my bio and at least a B3 for my ih (idk whether i will get or not. DX crossing my fingers) so that my msg for my block tests can be less than 2. which is 1.99 something. even though it rounds up to 2. but whatever. =.=

i should improve my la. somehow i must improve it. in order to get a better msg.

oh... i suddenly rmb that i need to research on the panel discussion topic. i think i will now know what to say for my panel discussion. I scared i don't dare to say anything. I don't dare to cut into the whole conversation. I just hope that i will know what to say and speak in proper english. rawr. >.<

wah. tmr no training. so shuang. can sleep late. XD tmr i shall chiong all my hw. i must chiong. if not i will die on tuesday. yes i must chiong. rawr

and mas selamat is caught :O haha...

yay. i am happy XD
byebye...

I think i screwed my bio today. I didn't really study my bio... I just hope that I will get an A1 for that. crossing my fingers...

I am super tired today. Idk why... when i woke up in the morning today, I was super tired even though i slept at 9+ last night. Normallyi sleep at about 11pm lor. I think i was super sian about studying bio yesterday so i slept early last night. plus my mum and my sis were sleeping at that time also. idk why... :O

During block test today, i actually slept for about 10min... unknowingly... i was thinking about how to do the stupid essay questions then i was very sleepy... haha. so i slept for a while. and after that i was quite awake already. and after i finish the paper, i just sit on my chair and stone, not trying even to check. I don't even feel like checking. I sort of gave up on it. Not that I don't know how to do a lot of questions, it's just that i feel very sian. lol...

When i reached home today, i slept for abouat 3hours... ok. i don't really take nap/sleep in the after (unlike my sis) but today i slept and slept for very long. I didn't expect myself to sleep until so late lah... Aiyoo... but that was what i planned to do anyway...

Today is just a sleepy day for me.

Haha. luckily block tests are over. yay. no more block tests. how i wish that it's a school holiday tmr. can relax at home... but nvm. monday is a holiday. can slack...

hahaha
i shall slack
and slack... byebye