Google chrome failed to help me post on my blog using my phone. Now I forgot what i wanted to write about. Let me think...
Oh. I wanted say I think I lost some of my ability to communicate, particularly in English, due to lack of communication with people when mugging for non GP subjects and watching too much Korean shows and dramas. Nowadays, I look at Chinese/English subtitles and the Korean phrases just pops up in my brain. This is bad. I think it is spoiling my grammar that's why I wanted to post something to help myself gain back some skills.
Even twitter is not helping because I just backspace everything when I feel that something is wrong about my grammar. :( And, I cannot consolidate my thought. Everything is in chunks.
I have been thinking a lot these days even though it is not really the right time (I should be studying). I realise I don't like to reflect about my life. When there is those kind of situation where the teacher asks us to reflect and say all those touching stuff, I always end up saying all the lame stuff. This is bad(?). I think it is some kind of problem with me. I don't like to think about my life and all those touching stuff. Maybe it is not wrong but it is something I hope I can change? I should be more open about my thoughts because no one is going to judge right? I think I am always afraid of saying the wrong things but there isn't a right or wrong way to think, is there? (here comes my weird sentence structure) so I shouldn't be bothered about what I say too much?
Maybe it is just being me. It will be weird if I just start saying those kind of mushy(?) stuff. Yes it is weird, I just imagined it in my head and I had goosebumps. But if I keep all those thoughts in my head, it is not doing anyone good. Isn't it better if I let people know that I appreciate them, I feel apologetic and bad, etc? But it still difficult for me to say those stuff. Maybe it is the problem of getting used to it. :/
Awkward place to end but I can continue this self debate forever because I haven't come to a conclusion yet. Hope I can come to a conclusion soon so I won't have to be so bothered by this. :D
