Changes that occurred in my life in 2014

Just some random things I thought I should conclude for this year. This also serves as a checkpoint for me to look back a few years from now to see how much I would have grown.

1. I used to think that people didn’t want to listen to me talk and I was really bad at speaking. I realised it was because most of the time, I didn’t give them a chance to listen by expressing my thoughts and resulting in a lack of practice in voicing for myself.
2. I used to lead my life like a robot. I just did what I was told to do and did everything logically. Now I try to follow my heart and of course not go overboard about doing it. (Life is about balance yo)
3. Because of point 2, I realised that I didn’t really have something in my heart that I really liked, especially when it comes to long terms goals and what kind of things I enjoy and like. Regarding this issue, I am still searching for what I want to be and do in life. 
4. I used to think that Christians are really screwed up people. Like how the religion is all about asking non-christians to go to hell and how christians have certain rules to follow eg. no premarital sex, divorce. And how they ‘pretend’ all so serious about helping and caring about other people when they have so many superficial and uncaring rules. But I realised firstly that the religion itself is much more than going to church, reading the bible, singing weird songs and telling people that they will go to hell. I learnt that it was about love, forgiving, and gratitude. Secondly that I shouldn’t judge people just because they are christians. (Yes, I used to do that a lot. I am sorry. >< ) Not everyone is pretentious about helping and caring; a lot of people are sincerely doing so. And lastly, I know that I haven’t completely understood the religion (more of understanding why so many people believe in christianity) so I am trying to learn more about it. 
5. I learn to actively step out of my comfort zone. Well sometimes I do it unconsciously. But I guess it’s more about dealing with the situation that I am not comfortable in. And I think I am getting more conscious about situation when I don’t feel in place. In the past, I wasn’t sensitive about my feelings, which brings me to point 6.
6. I realised that a lot of times, when things happen, I don’t really know how to react, which actually explains my laugh at almost everything. When I feel awkward, I laugh. When the joke is funny, I laugh. When the joke is really bad, I laugh too. Laughter is almost like my immediate response to everything. I don’t know if it is because I don’t know what my feeling is or it is because I don’t have any feeling. The latter seems much worse but I haven’t concluded anything.

(This is not the end of the list yet. I will finish this by the end of this year. :D )
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