Have been busy with work and my research. Today is like my free-est day ever since I started work. Work has been a little too much for me. All my own fault actually. I've been work for about 10 hours everyday. I am crazy.  I am going for 9-10 hours on the next two days as well. I also don't know what I am thinking. LOL. I just want to like max out my body. or maybe lose some weight. haha. I actually lost some. :D

waiting for my mcdonalds' to come now. my sis say it will come at 8pm and she say she is going to die. Yay.

I got a job.

I got a job. haha. went for the trial yesterday. it was quite fun. the people there are just fun. :D just that there were something wrong with my eyes/contact lenses. which made me feel a little bit uncomfortable and awkward. and perhaps look awkward too. But i am not going back there to work again. I just hope that the ppl at nex are fun as well.

and there is this shop at PoMo with like a lot of doraemon stuff. not very ex too..... i bought a earpiece for 8 bucks :D:D:D my mum asked me not to go there ever again. :(

It's been long since I last posted.

Went to and came back from Macau/China. Dyed my hair. Hey. I bought a new bag (finally). And gained weight I guess. That's the 3 most important things about that trip. haha. Everything else is boring actually. >.<

I don't want to say anything. I am bored but I don't want to do anything. I just want to lie on my bed the whole day. And eat chicken. argh.

Sometimes I feel that even if I disappear from the world, nobody will notice. Will you notice?

Hehe

I am happy. I probably shouldn't be happy cause o level higher mother tongue is tomorrow and I haven't read like half of the notes yet. I seriously don't know what to do about that?! omg. what if I get a B?! it's sad. argh. whatever. I am still going to play maple like now. (alright it's later)

I want to dye my hair purple. yes it's purple. I wanted red at first. But I think like most aunties dye their hair red? And most red dyes are not like the super bright red kind. Purple is cooler? yea cause red (hot) + blue (cool) = purple (neutral). Yay. I am so awesome.

I am kind of looking forward to grad night? But I don't know what to do with my hair/makeup/transport there. bleh. whatever.

Hehe

Secrets

I guess I have a lot of secrets in my life. And I think I won't tell anybody even after I die. (Technically I won't be able to tell anybody after I die... O.o). Hehe

I am crazy. I realised I seldom listen to songs. Let along using my laptop. I look at my iTunes then I headache. Dx. whatever. higher chinese o levels are coming. I keep on telling myself that I have to study but I am obviously not. I cannot concentrate. I think I will start studying when school ends? idk. argh

eoy break

Have been playing sims 2 for the past few days. For the whole day. I think I am getting a bit bored of it, which is good for now. If not my mum will start scolding me again. I am finally installing maple. (It's loading now :P)

I want to go watch a movie although it means that I will have to spend some money. But it has been very long since I last watched a movie so I want to watch. Plus, EOYs are over (although there's still HCL O levels. omg.). I am going to ECP again tmr. This time I guess I know how to go already. haha. And I don't think I am going to walk across half of ECP again and sweat like hell. I got tanned on my forehead from that day off kite-flying at ECP.

oh no something happened to the maplestory thingy cannot open. omg. I took so long to move my files to the other hard disk and finally install maple and now cannot open. wts. I am going to faint like how the woman in korean dramas does it.

the new windows live messenger is weird. I cannot change my name. argh.

exams are over

eoys are over but I don't really feel like super happy. Maybe perhaps I wasn't mugging like super crazily or maybe there's still o levels omg. die manz. I shall not think about it now. argh.

so many things past but i don't feel like posting about them. i don't know why. maybe i am still excited to do other stuff. hehe. Shall post about them soon. before I forget. wait for them. haha

kaka

was watching wo cai yesterday then got detective conan. omg. they even used the same music like the starting and when xiaoxiaobing was saying who the 'murderer' was. argh. made me miss watching conan. hehe. I am going to watch conan now!! XD

I realised that nowadays like nothing to do when I come online. i seriously don't know what to do lah. sian. :( just hope for eoys to end soon then I can play sims 2 like crazy.

BUSY

I guess maybe I have lost my habit to blog. I don't even know what to blog about. Life's been busy. Even during trips to school/home I don't have time to stare and people or observe them. It's either I am too tired so I sleep or I will just keep on thinking about the stuff I need to do.

Recently I keep getting headaches. Today is the same. Since yesterday I should say. I don't feel like doing anything. This is sucky. :(

Life is unfair.

Is believing in people wrong? Why do people have to cheat me? It's not like they get things from cheating my feelings. What's wrong with them? Or is it something wrong with me? Trusting people too easily. I don't get it. Is everyone in this world doing things that are like fake? So I cannot trust everyone? What is wrong with trusting people? Trust is hard. Some people take very long to trust. But me? Trust people and get cheated. I think it's unfair. Life is unfair. Yes, we all know it.

YOG

The closing ceremony of the Youth Olympic Games is going on now.

The YOG has brought people playing a sport together. It has brought a country together. It has brought the whole world together. I saw people from different countries making friends together. The feeling was like so great.

Even though I have so much work to catch up, I don't regret volunteering at the YOG. Looking at teenagers like me coming together from all over the world to Singapore, the feeling is like totally indescribable.

I <3 YOG :D

finally

I finally fixed my blogskin/changed my blogskin.

yog judo was fun. but i don't feel like going to icc again. it makes me sick. after one whole day, saturday, being there, I felt very uncomfortable. and yesterday i had fever. luckily the doctor gave me 2 days of mc. then i can do my homework today and not go to school. i feel damn sian. lost. irritated. missing school for so many days makes me feel sick. it sucks. i am sure going to be lost when i go back. i don't want to go to school.

有些事情是命中注定，而有些只是巧合。

有些巧合是命中注定。

但命中注定的事，绝对不是巧合。

I know my blog layout is screwed. I also don't know why. I didn't even change anything. At first i thought it was only like that on Google Chrome. In the end it turned out that Adelle had that too. and I went to Firefox and it was still like that. I don't know what to do. :|

This lamb is so cute... once again. it's stupid and retarded. hahaha (laughs like the annoying orange!)

Have not posted for super long i guess.... actually not about one week. I think cause i feel that time has been pasting super slowly. like freaking slowly. i am like slowly spending every second and minute.

don't feel like posting about my operation. basically my leg was like numb at first then it started to be like pain. LOL. but now i feel okay... but my scar is like freaking freaking disgusting lahh. i don't want to see it manz. but it's like now exposed cause it's nicer when it is like being aired. i have like mc until the 31st manz. but i think i am still going to school. idk if i can walk already. i don't dare to like try. i feel like my left leg got like totally no strength lah. :( i dreamt that i could walk one day okay. so happy. i feel like a baby lor... like everyday improving... haha. but it's like so tired walking with crutches. when i stand i feel like all the blood rush to my leg. then it will become like brown colour. o.o

everyday i just slack. bla bla. i need to do my work manz. :/

going for operation tmr. i don't feel like as excited/nervous as last time. maybe tmr i will start feeling it. >.<>

Fallin' For You - Colbie caillat

The song is nice and the mv is so cute. haha. got the fat guy. Enjoy. :)

haixx today's training damn what lah

dunnoe what i make until like my shoulder/collar bone. then now my neck and my right back also pain.

i think i slack to much that's why. then people play with me then i can get injured easily.it's like when people play with me i just lose my balance very easily cause most of the times i put my weight on my right leg. so ppl kick my right leg = i will fall already. and now i don't even try to defend a throw lah. sians. i also don't know what i am trying to do now. FAIL ME. >.<

argh i don't feel like doing anything now. i need to do la srq and physics sia but i just don't feel like doing anything now seriously. >.<

just went to the doctor for check up today. and i had to do to blood test. when the doctor told me i freaked out can?! that time i do op also never do blood test. but after i did the blood test it was like no kick! had been poked with much thicker needles. haha. just when the taking out part quite painful... and i was amused by my own blood. XD it's like so red. i feel like some vampire. o.O

damn sian lah. i wanna slack. :( this week is like crap. need to hand in so many things. next week is like week 9 already. siao. like the last week of school already. (if the sabbaticals/lifeskills camp/week 10 is like not counted). then it's my operation. i realised that i am going to miss grading also. which means i have to stay at green belt for until dunnoe when. >.<

firefox is like so slow recently. idk why. so i keep on using google chrome now a days. which means i cannot auto horn on my mousehunt. but people will just keep horning for me actually. no diff lah... but i still like firefox. i hope my firefox can become normal again....

after blogging about so many things, i still don't feel like doing any work. GREAT

haha i last posted like almost 2 weeks ago...>.<

basically i went out with om team on last friday? yea. we went to the cathay at dhoby ghaut to have lunch and watch movie. we watched percy jackson! haha. the movie was lame but quite exciting. XD then we went to far east to shop. haha. i rmb when we were like walking to the mrt then i said go shopping to myself and smiled like very happily, according to wangjia. i also dunnoe why. just thought that we nv go shopping before. haha. wangjia was like looking for cheapo clothings! XD i bought a hat. amazing. i actually bought something from shopping. but nobody bought anything for graces actually. haha

then cny. okay cny went so fast okay... super duper fast. it's like i thought got like so many days to slack and whatever, then in the end also nv enjoy until shuang! omg lah. still must go to school and face all the hw. xiang dao jiu bu gan xin. DX

anyways i am glad that it's friday. :)

next week is like week 8?! wth.

Went to help the judo coms today... lol. shouldn't have decided to help out. cause have to go little india mrt station on a sunday. (which means.... you know lah) but nvm it was quite fun... lol at jinru's weird dream about wild wild wet. haha

i am freaking bored these days. i need ppl to sms me please. please sms me!!! :D

still have the chinese bao zhang thing to do... sian. i am surprised i manage to finish the introduction thingy for math portfolio. haha

next week is chinese new year already. yay!

who is jiwei?

I've been posting a lot recently. I think it's good. :D

I think i will be missing graces camp! seriously. I am having my knee op on the thursday on the last week of the term. so most probably i am going to miss graces camp. Unless the camp is like the the first 3 days of the week. Until wed. Then i won't miss it! But i think i still can go for the camp for the first 3 days? idk. I didn't thought about that lah. Now I thought abt it it's like so disappointing. argh. >:{

I feeling like re-watching Hai Pai again! It was like super gan dong/funny lah. even though the ending was quite lame. >.<>.<>.<

stayed back in school today for ih consultation+do NE stuff. it's been so long since i last stay back lah... i missed the om stays. I miss staying back in school until 4+/5 to do stuff! argh...!

i realised i ended every paragraph with ARGH... o.o

For some reasons my facebook HomePage keep on cannot load. I am sad/bored.

I watched haipai (last ep already. :() and the new jiuxianglaizheni just now. it's like super funny lah. haha i hope it will continue to be so funny. XD

oh. it's like Feb already lah. sian. 1/12 of the year 2010 is gone already. great. time flies. this is sad. :(

hmm... i don't know what is going on with me actually. I think I am a little bit crazy. Yesterday night i totally couldn't sleep at all. lie on the bed for like 1+h almost 2h i think. zzz. got block nose then keep tearing. then in the morning got super dark eye rings and big eye bags (even though i already have...) it's like for the whole of the morning i was like in the daze mode lor... cannot even open my eyes. esp during IH, in the aircon room some more, totally going to sleep already lor... >.<

haixx, i don't want to think about school work manx. sian. 3 days of non school days makes me like in a holiday mood already. haha.

hahahahahaha. i am crazy. it's either i am emo or that i am in an uncontrollable mood. >.<

being NE rep sucks. rawr. :@

For some reasons i just read my old posts. And i am amused by myself. haha.

I must not be so emo when i blog seriously.

I must blog about lame stuff! HAH!

120th post

went to the doctor today.

[for some reason i think i blog most about my injured knee] XD

i am going for the op during march which is like about 2 months (less than 2 months actually) the surgery is like damn scary i realise after i go google it. the doctor didn't make it so scary. IDC lah. sian. still got so long. during march then i shall start to worry. haha. yay.

sheryin says i am emo when i blog. hahah. i just blog about emo stuff. lol

i shall be happy byebye.

119th

yesterday was crazy. i slept at 1am on thurday night/friday morning to chiong R&R. even though the last one was like totally screwed. IDC. woke up at 5am in the morning. sleeping for 4 hours is equivalent to not sleeping at all. I had weird dreams. >.< shall not try to explain cause i am lazy to try to rmb what they were.

I was kinda satisfied since I managed to finish my 6 R&Rs one time. So i thought that i could just survive training and go home and sleep. training was horrible. everyone was like sian okay. haixx. and i got my knee injured again. like sprain. painful sia. i almost cried. like seriously. argh. i think maybe it's my shoes. i was so stupid that i went to change my shoes when i went back to the dojo to take some medic stuff. then because i was holding onto too many stuff i stupidly decided to just wear my normal white/high heel shoes back. argh. maybe that's why. But maybe it was already coming. Cause i had the weird feeling. everytime i use my left thigh, i will feel this sharp pain. like cramp. so when i did the sprinting, it's like the more i run, the more i felt the cramp. like my thigh muscle is going to tear kind of feeling. freaking painful.

It already happened. IDK what to do now. I think maybe i torn something in my knee again. i think it's a little swollen. cannot really tell maybe because i am too fat. >.< but something is moving in my knee. idk whether i should tell my mother. i just told her that i hurt my knee again. then she say i'd better not tear anything again. argh. it's not that i want to tear anything wad. haixx. i don't want to be crippled. zzz. why can everyone else be fine after pt but not me? why must everything happen to me.argh?!?

i'm crazy now. emo. but i must be happy. force myself to smile. >.<

It's been more than 1 week since I last posted.

What happened:

• 9th January: my 16th birthday. went to commonwealth judo championship briefing. I know that is a little bit late but Thanks everyone who wished me happy birthday. :)
• 10th January: first day of the championship. it ended like at 7+ (luckily we didn't wait for the victory ceremony to end)
  
• 11th & 12th january: no sch because of championship but it ended earlier. LOL at all the stalkings. haha

IDK whaat else to add. but i finished 3 of my R&Rs. I am amazing right? 3 more to go. Must hand in on wed. >.< IH SIA is screwed. hahaha

yay. I am happy :):):)

Great it's been one week since I posted. Great great great. I don't know what to post about.

I gotta new phone. The phone is kinda retarded but cool I guess. It has qwerty keyboard. :D:D haha

We are like having friday training. I am sad. Not a day to rest in between trainings. I must make myself get used to it man. If not I will get some mental disorder worrying to much about training.

We got a new co form this year who is like my cousin's cousin. Later he go complain to my cousin about how bad my la is. I very scared. >.< whatever. I must hope that he doesn't realise that I am his cousin's cousin! If not DIE!

Everything is like almost the same as last year. Lessons and everything else. I didn't really have the feeling that we had a long break in between. I hope that I can still remember what was taught last year. I threw away my IH assignments lah. like what the shit. now i don't know what to do about the first assignment. great.

SIAs are crazy this year. (I just remembered that i have to check what's fir bio sia on the lms!) okay. like all of them are due like so fast. Chinese and IH esp. and LA R&R... I just have to laugh about it. XD

Life's great once again. and i am going to be 16 soon. zzz

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!~